There’s static everywhere. Vague ideas form grey-grey-white-black shapes, almost indiscernible against the grey-grey-white-black background. flicker, flicker, flicker. Everything is jumbled and it’s such an extraordinary amount of effort to collect these hazy half-ideas, quarter-musings, fractions of fragments and mould them into something resembling a coherent train of thought.
I’m lucky that I don’t get the dreaded ‘creative block’ all too often…
But when I do it’s a wall the length and height akin to the greats.
It’s that feeling of being hemmed in, closed off, a low-key constant claustrophobia that makes me want to claw at these proverbial walls. Agitated, frustrated, with an exacerbated short-fuse because the only way I feel I can adequately express myself has been barred.
‘No sorry not today/this week/this month‘.
Usually they’re gone within a week – I’ll stick on some music, zen myself out until a tiny glimmer of something presents itself, and I’m in a lucid enough state to chase it and carefully construct a better, brighter thing to kickstart the creative process.
But right now I’m in this never-ending all-encompassing darkness. A stark contrast to the crisp white pages and the blinking cursor reminding me of that 0 words out of however many. I look tired because I am tired – for all this empty space and lack of light, the rest of my brain is still all the sounds all the time
sleep is but a fear-ridden whisper away.
what if this doesn’t clear and we’re stuck at this point
what if
I’m in Rome right now and I feel like this was a bad decision – I was hoping that such a beautiful, historical city would help unlock some secret door in this horribly high creative blockade. So far I feel possibly more trapped than ever – don’t like any of my photographs and I’m at a loss of what shots to take. It’s disheartening.
But I think I’ll try the ‘keep going till it breaks’ tactic. I don’t really have room to take a step back and re-evaluate things right now. It might just be some elevated cabin-fever feelings from something I can’t isolate right now. It might be gone within a week.
Let’s hope, ey.
Let’s hope.
If you have any tips for overcoming creative blocks please to be sharing them with me kthnx
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Lauren Ostler says
This was so beautifully written, it felt like reading a poem! When I get a creative block I look to other creative people to seek inspiration and hope something sparks from there. I hope you overcome the block soon, I'm sure you will!Lauren xxwww.teastainedlauren.blogspot.co.uk
Areeba says
I reread my favorite things, quotes, poems especially from Erin Hanson. Give her a try, her poems are extremely beautiful and fill me up with calmness and a lot of inspiration. I hope you'll get over the block v soon!!xo,Not Your Type Blog
KIM says
To be honest, whenever I get a creative block, I tend to tell myself to take a long deep breath and really talk to myself. It may sound weird at first, but talking to myself really allowed my purpose to flow right back in. If that doesn't work, I just talk or write about what happened in my life and what will happen in the couple of days. Instead of looking for some creative thing to pop up, enjoy the time you have and just simply have fun!!! Take a little break and do the things you truly love. It will come in time and of course the right time!! Stay strong and keep breathing xx
Meg Siobhan says
You write so damn beautifully. I know it sounds hard, but try to find a way to just zone out and forget about creating. Usually that's what I attempt to do, and then let the creativity come back in it's own way!Meg | A Little Twist Of…
aimee cottle says
I know others have said it, but damn, you write so beautifully! So eloquently! I hope you overcome this block soon, creative block is hard 🙁 x http://www.aimeeraindropwrites.co.uk x
Sharon Reid says
I agree with the other comments, you write so beautifully, I hope you are able to overcome this block. Thankfully I've not had this yet as I've not been blogging long enough but I'm sure it will happen one day. I'll keep a look out for your post on how you were able to get through it xSharon from rosieloveslife.blogspot.com
Lizzie ♥ says
Oh my gosh I know this feeling so much! I went to Finland hoping that I would be inspired, but I ended up being so agitated as I wasn't able to type up and write blog posts. It's so frustrating! I hope your creative spark comes to you soon! And have fun in Rome :DLizzie Bee // mysticthorn.com
Nermeen says
Love this! I totally relate because I've just started blogging and I already feel a wall between me and what I want to create. What helps me though is watching/reading stuff that I know I love. I usually find I can squeeze some creative juice from it!